Realize I have issues. Pills don't = happy. 60-70mg a day of hydrocodone have taken over my life. Some might say, "That's it? You are a light weight." Ya, ya i know but we all have our demons and drugs affect everybody differently.
Issue #1: Eat up your happy pills. Sure you are happy for awhile. But you don't give a rip about life or anybody else. Forget my girlfriend even exists and dont call her. Sit in the apartment alone and veg out. Next thing you know half the days over. Nevermind the day the months already half over. Were is all the time goin? Who cares its almost time to take more happy and forget about whatever you were thinking about. I'm sure it wasn't important. Don't need anybody or anyone. Become comfortably numb.
Issue #2: No happy pills means prepare for hell. Cant see anybody, cant go outside, stuck in your little apartment while you suffer. Then the anxiety. Don't wanna go out, take a drive and freak out. Your not gonna make it back alive. Everybody's looking at you. Go out with friends and you can't breath/palms sweat. Make up excuses to not be with the girlfriend. Just wanna run and be left alone only way to be safe. Time slows down to a stop. Want everybody to stay away, leave you alone, people just make it worse. Even those you love. Become a sad shadow.
Ya see what happens? The situation becomes lose-lose. Damned if you do. Damned if you dont. You forget about everyting thats really important and take loved ones for granted. They take over your life and you become a changed person. Attitude and personality all change. It destroys your relationship with your loved ones. Its not worth it and its time to get better. Win back your life.
Issue #1: Eat up your happy pills. Sure you are happy for awhile. But you don't give a rip about life or anybody else. Forget my girlfriend even exists and dont call her. Sit in the apartment alone and veg out. Next thing you know half the days over. Nevermind the day the months already half over. Were is all the time goin? Who cares its almost time to take more happy and forget about whatever you were thinking about. I'm sure it wasn't important. Don't need anybody or anyone. Become comfortably numb.
Issue #2: No happy pills means prepare for hell. Cant see anybody, cant go outside, stuck in your little apartment while you suffer. Then the anxiety. Don't wanna go out, take a drive and freak out. Your not gonna make it back alive. Everybody's looking at you. Go out with friends and you can't breath/palms sweat. Make up excuses to not be with the girlfriend. Just wanna run and be left alone only way to be safe. Time slows down to a stop. Want everybody to stay away, leave you alone, people just make it worse. Even those you love. Become a sad shadow.
Ya see what happens? The situation becomes lose-lose. Damned if you do. Damned if you dont. You forget about everyting thats really important and take loved ones for granted. They take over your life and you become a changed person. Attitude and personality all change. It destroys your relationship with your loved ones. Its not worth it and its time to get better. Win back your life.
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