Day 8

Insomnia

Sadly sleep is still very elusive. Not even Tylenol PM will knock me out. Last night became very tired and made an attempt to pass out early to no avail. Ended up awake for the next 3 hours before finally falling asleep. That sleep was not good. Estimate only 4 maybe 5 hours of restless sleep. Motivation levels were very low and ended up taking a short nap just after rising and that was also short. Brain seems to be kicking into overdrive making it hard to sleep. Racing thoughts while trying to pass out and intense dream states are making it difficult.

Good news is almost all physical symptoms are gone. Just slight chills and goose pimples every now and then. Back of my neck feels strange with a slight warming sensation. Almost a menthol kinda feel. So the body feels good for the most part. Did a lite work out today that really left me feeling drained.

The brain on the other hand is a different story. Its very fuzzy and sometimes i feel sick to my head. Its making concentration and focus difficult at times. The sick part comes and goes but the fuzz seems to always be there. Motivation levels are still very low. Starting to feel kinda blu at times to and thats the depression kicking in. Still no anxiety to speak of.

Have to force my self to get up and do things. Eating has also been an issue. Im just not hungry at all. I almost have to force myself to eat. Todays food consisted of a banana, 1 slice of pizza, and a small salad. Thats it. Compared to yesterdays total food intake of a banana, a granola bar, and an egg. I gotta start eating more. Lack of food and sleep are a double whammy on my motivation. Energy levels are really low.

Starting to get groggy. A solid nights sleep would be a god send.

Now i head off to me bed,
I hope the Lord conks me on the head;
If i cant get some sleep,
Im going to scream *Bleep!*